.Hello Spring.

This morning in pe whilst Mr Rayner was preventing me and Alison from crossing the road we were standing near a tree and i saw a million bee's! well maybe that's a bit of a hyperbole there might have only been a few but the point is i realized it was spring. Goodbye winter and my daily cups of tea and hello to smelling the aromas of flowers in full bloom.
Ive began my spring cleaning but i need to go throw all those draws of mine and throw out the pile of cluster that appears to have consumed. Time for a fresh start :D

.Christofer Drew.

Oh Gee, he be my heartthrob, sigh.
His voice and darling lyrics puts a smile on my face.
Anyone who thinks different is either insane or lacking the left side of the brain
Phoebe thinks so too :D

.Flippen Stocked.

My Oh My, I got my leaner's license! Seems all those butterfly's in my tummy was a good thing whilst i was sitting the test, i got %100 just to toot my own horn and all.
Just a pre-warning, ask me when im on the road because i can assure you in going to be the biggest danger with my hectic driving. I do hope i can see over the stearing wheel and wont need assistant from a booster seat or such haha.
Hello 120hours of driving :)

.Recount of a sweet 16th.

I woke up on friday morning with a cheesy smile across my face knowing it was my 16th birthday. Finally the time for more independence, getting my license and feeling that bit older.

I got ready for school and when i arrived i was greeted with a ton of hugs and smiling faces, my day was grand. I was disappointed in the afternoon when i was unable to sit for my l's test because i forgot my birth certificate and therefore didn't have enough identification pfft. I later went to a family party that night where i hung out with my cousins and enjoyed myself muchly with endless laughing. I experienced a blonde moment, i was blowing up a balloon and walking down concrete stairs ( not the best move accounting for how clumsy i can be) when i tripped and fell down them althought i didnt realise it untill everyone was 'awhing' and helping me up, i cried from the pain and the laughter of my stupidity.

Saturday, the day of my party. I slept in than was frantically rushed around getting ready. The guest arrived and i had a lovely time. I got to see yasmin again
which made me feel swell. I reieved so many wonderful gifts and sarah's letter for me made me cry god bless her cotton socks. I spent the night watching horror movies with my best friends and talking to all hours of the morning. Me and Amanda made pancakes today for breakfast and accidently put an overload of maple syrup on it which later split all over my legs leaving me ever so sticky. my sisters persistent nagging made me catch a bus to the shops with her and when i arrived home i got sunburnt legs from sitting in the sun, Hello coming summer :)

This is my time so far of being sweet 16, its fantastic.

.Last Day of Being 15.

I have been counting down the days till my birthday for the last month, each day passing I have become more excited, my birthday is now tomorrow and oh gee im nearly bursting at the seams with joy! I must say, the past year has been wonderful ive made so many new friendships, ive matured something cronic, earned more trust within my parents and life has never been better. As of tomorrow I will be sweet 16 and I can just tell this year is going to be wonderful. Tomorrow I go for my learners test and fingers crossed I get it although I butterflies are already overwhelming my tummy im so afraid ill fail due to accidental mistakes. Dad is taking me for dinner with the family, im sure it will be enjoyable.

This Saturday I will celebrating my 16th with a party, I can’t wait im sure to have a jolly good time. Hannah said her present for me she cant wrap and sarah says it cant be lofted by one person, im so curious to what it is they sure succeeded in making me dumbfounded for clues. I cannot wipe the smile of my face (:

Today Phoebe made me laugh, Amanda put a smile on my face with our lunch time chat and matt let me plait his hair after my constant nagging and persistence over the past few days. Today was lovely and tomorrow will be even better.

Oh my, look at the time, hannah will be here any minute to take me to the school performace were ill be sitting in the crowd cheering on miss Alison.

This is meee : D

.Here Comes Goodbye.

You’ve been there my whole life, seen me grow up, been there to experience the laughs, the tears, the splendorous times and the difficult ones. You are a major part of my life and hold such a valuable part of my heart but I suppose like I stated in my late blog, there comes a time for change. So you’ve decided you want to move far away, Queensland to be exact and leave me here, you understand I will barley ever get to see you and yet that doesn’t stand in your way. You have another family now, my half brothers one only 4 and the other 1years old and your going to take them away from me too, I will miss watching them grow up, do you not understand I want to be apart of their lives too.

No combination of words I put together will make you change your mind, I know, ive tried, ive spent endless hours wiping the tears away that fall down my cheek when I think of the upcoming event. Every sad song I hear reminds me of your moving away and I know as time goes on things will get easier but right its hard, so hard and yet you exert excitement and adventure can you not show some empathy for me after all is it not like im the one being affected the most?

So here comes goodbye, I’ll miss you, all of you, don’t let me fade away, I’ll always be here, For youu Dad.


.Lyrics to the song that i shed a tear to everytime.
"Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed"

.The Wind of Change.

Change is something I’m sure most people experience but from my own occurrences it’s quite the disappointment when individuals change in ways that you never expected them to and for the worst. Throughout the past few years I’ve had friendships blossom and seen too many wilt away.

Its one of the most wonderful things when somebody comes into your life and once they are their you don’t know how you ever lived without them, thought this makes it even harder when a time comes and they actually do leave your life and your left feeling uncompleted and miserable. When an incident like this occurs most commonly you can feel like the worlds come tumbling down but keep in mind that it certainly hasn’t and there are people who will help you and be there to offer advice and at some stage, although it may seem hard to imagine at the time, another person will come and take there place eventually and you will once again be content yet again.

People are influenced by the others around them, some effected more than others and this brings upon quite a lot of change, ive lost friends in the past when they have been around people with different attitudes and morals then myself and they eventually took on there likes which later cause much controversy and differentiated us majorly.
Ive had relationships fail when the person had been faking their real attitudes and personality and when their true self came out it was most spiteful and arrogant, I act myself around others and I have quite a lot of confidence but I understand not everyone like this but I strongly recommend to anyone not to take on the persona of someone else because therefore people wont like who they really are but what there pretending to be and never will they have true friends.
Of corse, change isn’t always for the worst, there have been occasions where I may have known someone in the past and not particularly got along with them but meet them a few years down the track only to find out they had changed and we shared much in common.
I accept the fact that every person is an individual and entitled to their own opinions and because of this i get along rather swell with most and as old as the quote is ''if you have nothing nice to say, don't say it at all'' seriously go by it and it will save you so much trouble.

In conclusion to these ever long paragraphs of my babble, i think that with change must comes acceptance as everybody is entitled to there own opinions and morals but for those of you who let others change who you are and how you act or even who you make acquaintance with, take a serious reality check and don't let it happen or your going to end up regretting it.

.Offically Over School.

I swear each day of school keeps getting longer and more boring. This week seems like its been an eternity and just refuses to end. I anticipate the end of every school day but only then i come home to the pile loads of homework and never ending list of assignments to complete that teachers insist on shoving down my throat. Seriously, they give me so much homework and assignments i dont even have time to study blahh. I'm over teachers constantly rambling on about my future and making the school certificate sounds like the most important thing that will ever happen and if i fail it will be the end of the world, which honestly is entirely wrong its no big deal and isnt worth much if i continue to year 11 and 12 anyway which i am doing.

That leads me to another stressful decision, choosing electives for next year i was confident when i handed in the form with my chosen subjects and than totally flipped out the next day hoping i made the right decision but not feeling confident about it.

School is consuming all my time and im officially over it, the temptation to drop out at the end of this year is high but i wont, sigh.

Currently i have
Pe assignment, which i forgot to hand in today
Geography assignments
History exam
Religion assessment
Food tech assignments and test
Textiles Speech n presentation
Textiles Costume and folio

I best be doing them rather now than rambling on about how much a pain in the butt it all it but i couldnt restrain my frustration any longer, so now ive poured it all out in a yet again long blog im going to continue my busy night.

.Another not so perfect day.

Well i must say I'm pleased with the weather warming up, it makes is easier to get out of bed each morning as im normally tempted so 'accidentally' sleep through my alarm and stay in the comfort of my bed.

I find the maturity of some people outstanding low especially when id previously had much higher expectations for them. I think ignoring someone is the worst way to deal with problems and it only leads to a larger climax when the problem is brought up. I despise people who make drama out of nothing or bring up previously resolved fights to cause trouble again. I am content in saying that i rarely fight with people but there is one person who constantly is at my throat and i must admit its getting me down. Today was one of those unfortunate days where an argument broke out and fair enough we both poured our opinions out at once, but i keep it to myself not go around to everybody looking for sympathy. I just keep holding out for the day when this person will get over their childish ways and just learn to accept i have my own way of doing things and that there not always going to be number one amongst my friends therefore they cant consume all my time.

Good golly i can ramble, would just look at the massive paragraph i wrote and i barley got most of my opinions out, i swear this blogpage is going to end up my personal psychiatrist whereby i can get rid of all my thought haha.

So on a better note i finished two assignments and the weekend it almost here so i can look forward to relaxing and enjoying myself at the party, forgetting any worries :) Oh and my phone broke again *sheds a tear* it will be in repair for a week, sigh, my phones like my right arm i don't know what ill do as im stuck with my dodgey old phone that turns off every time i write a message which is most frustrating.

I do feel sorry for you if you've actually read all of the above, Ive probably just wasted 5mintues of your life with my useless chitchat. Goodnight

.The Perfect Girl.

So basically the other day some guy, i wont state the name because im sure they would rather stay unknown, stated what he would like in a girl if he were to date her. He rambled of a ridiculous long list some of which included: complete straight teeth, not skinny but not someone with curves, flawless skin with especially no pimples, no hair in the below region and the list went on. By the end of it i was dumbfounded that someone could expect so much in one person and reinforced the fact that its not just media who influences girls to become the ideal women but men in general.

In my opinion i think that this person needs be getting there priories in order and stop demanding so much or else they will end up lonely because obviously there looking for perfection and frankly nobody poses that and i highly doubt anyone who lives up to his expectations will be to impressed when they find out his judgment basically goes on looks. Men can be so ignorant and Ive come to the following conclusion.

Men feel that because they have a penis that they are much better than everyone else but the problem is in most cases they misinterpret the location of this penis which is normally located on there heads. i would like to go see them boosting about the size of that one because I'm sure there would be some huge ones out there.

P.S I do apologize for any decent guys out there whom i have offended by the above blog but please see yourself as one of the few exception.

.Hello First Blog.

Why, this is be my first blog and i do admit for once i don't know where to begin.

I feel today went too long for my liking, the never ending bus trip, the rainy weather, being the clutz i am dropped my apple and was unable to anything but watch my recess roll down the hill and later having to catch the bus home with people showing assumed smiles on there faces after seeing the permanent marker scribbled all over my face thanks to sarah and her fantastic artistic ability, note the sarcasm.

To make things worse there was the teachers constantly trying to shove assignments and homework down down throat lead me to much relief when i finally got home only to realize i had to than attempt all the homework. I'm over school at the moment and would much like just to take a long holiday but obviously that isn't going to happen.

Somebody today drew my attention to the fact that i tend to youse myspace status as a twitter always updating what im doing constantly, yet i cant stand the whole twitter business, go figure.

Well althought i have a never ending list of things yet to say, mother is calling me for dinner so ill wrap things up her, i shall go have dinner, than get into bed with my electric blanket, might i mention is the best thing since sliced break in my opinion, and do a bit of reading and leave this not to fantastic day behind me.

heres hoping tomorrow will be better (: